The moment we kissed at our wedding. I actually held my emotions together rather well this day. The only time I truly felt nervous was after everyone had left and it was just me and my dad. We sat there and talked and then rode to the ceremony site. When we arrived, I remember being able to see JJ from the car window and feeling so many butterflies. I couldn't even speak. I sat completely silent in the backseat of the car (and for those of you who know me, you know this is extremely rare- haha!) The only time I cried this day: When I was completely alone. I absolutely HATE crying in front of people. I just don't like people to see me feeling so vulnerable. I cried when I was all alone and it was just me and my dad at the house. I went to the bathroom and then came out and saw myself for the FIRST time, completely dressed and ready from head to toe in the mirror. It wasn't a sobbing cry but a quick tear/gasp of one. At the moment when I saw myself, all I could think was how happy I was I would be getting to see JJ in a couple of minutes! The day I had been planning for 9 months had FINALLY arrived. All the fine details had come together and the big picture was about to be laid out in front of me. It's a magical feeling and I honestly believe I did a terrible job describing this compared to how I actually felt.
Onto the title of this entry- this is a quote from the last line of a reading in my wedding ceremony (The reading is called "The Art of Marriage". Lauren read this during my ceremony). This line is something I strive to live by everyday since JJ and I have gotten married. I try to make an effort to say a quick "thank you" for even the simplest things. He has entered a new phase of his life since he started his full-time job (which is going great by the way) and I have been doing my very best to help him in this transition. I wake up every morning with him to make his lunch, make sure he has everything he needs, wish him a good day and see him off to work. I realize that I may now not put as much of my time into school activities and/or other obligations that I do enjoy but I am fine with this fact. I want to be the best wife I can be. On top of this, I want to be the best partner and friend to JJ that I can be. I can't be this if I am stretched thin. My life has changed in so many ways this past couple of months. My life certainly was by no means bad before but my life now just feels so much richer- so much more alive. I feel like the whole world is at my fingertips and I just can't wait to discover it all with JJ. I know we both have our own obstacles to overcome within ourselves to grow in our relationship and love but let me just say- I am so blessed we chose each other! :)
Sincerely,
Marcy
Wahhh this post made me all warm and fuzzy inside! I may need some tips on how to be such a good wife ;) love you and even though I'm reading this on Thursday- it started my morning off "warm!"
ReplyDelete:) so cute! you are too sweet!
ReplyDelete...and i blogged the quiche recipe today! check it out.
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